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.the news of divorce hits the airwaves again. dis time it belongs to jup's cousin who already has 5 kids.

.i was shocked. the fella is gd looking - even for his age. serious. he looked a bit like jup (i'm not trying to tell people jup is gd looking here ok) but shorter. i tot MIL was joking when she told us that abang L is already a duda. the wife's kinda pretty as well. they're one of those gd looking couples around. they have 5 kids - 3 boys and 2 girls. eldest is 10 yrs old. reason for the divorce is because the wife is gg out wit another man. and it was not her first.

.sad. i feel sad for the kids. and i'm angry wit the now ex-wife coz she's the one who really wanted out despite already having 5 kids.

.it was a gd conversation topic between me & jup dat night. he wondered y abang L is so gd looking and yet, got to face dis kinda tragedy in his life (well, actually i wanted to tell jup - u think handsome people got all the gd luck is it? kekekekeke.. - but i held back).

.though we know dis kinda thing existed in this world, when it happened, we still find it a little hard to swallow @ times. we dont exactly know wat happened in their lives but i believed, if one can think of others (in dis case, their children), things can work out. it takes a lot of hard work but if u hv faith, it will work out. if it doesnt well, life still has to go on. yr life jus doesnt stop there. move on.

.some things are jus unavoidable. i'm not saying that my marriage life is unbreakable. as we all know, 'kita mampu merancang. hanya Tuhan menentukan'. dis is one of the reasons y i dont really tell much about my life (good or bad) to anybody. if the inevitable happens, sheesh... imagine the gossip i caused. ish ish ish..

.one cant be certainly sure that one's life is a fairytale. come on lah. be realistic. who would be so daft to think so. things might be smooth sailing for some at times but i'm sure there're bound to be hiccups along the way. its part & parcel of life itself. without the hiccups, life will be very dull and strange. the hiccups in life creates the challenge. i'm not wishing for the bad to happen, of course. but to me, i'd rather expect bad things to happen rather than to happily think that everything's perfect. if i dont think like dat, i'll get a rude shock that might lead me to suicide if i'm not careful. hahahahahahaha.. true wat. @ least if i'm mentally prepared, the impact will not be as bad.

.i once told some acquaintances about some bad patch i went through in my life. and there was only jus one incident which happens to be a little bad, i suppose. so these 2 shallow people got misinterpreted (due to how their minds work) & turn the whole story around, spread it widely (anonymously) in their.. erm, i mean her blog, making jup like a wife-batterer. more like a joke coz she's making herself look like the court jester. hehehehehe.. well, they can say watever they wanna say. i know i dont live life like a fairytale. i know reality. @ least i have the experiences in handling stuff and i know i'll emerge stronger. i wonder.. when she assume things like dat, how will she react if she were in my shoes? hmmmm.. then u know wat, she got the cheek to tell me that i'm jealous of her and tell me to build it. hahahahahahahahaha.. i so wanted to tell her 'get back to reality, please' but i think its not worth it. plus, she was never a fren to start off wit. so y should i care? podah!

.abang L was married for more than 10 years and it has crumbled. i'm married for coming 3 yrs and frankly saying, its tough. n now dat i'm pregnant wit my 2nd. the challenges jus increase. it could be my fault and it could be his. i'm only holding to dis - susah dahulu, senang kemudian. i dont know wat the future has for me. i can only hope for the best. being a pessimist, i exercise positive thinking furiously. i take my 'quit smoking journey' as an example. best mind exercise i ever had.

.my advice to my friends: dont let your mind control you. you are in control of yr mind. i speak from experience. not jus membabi buta, copy + paste from somewhere ok. hahahahahahaha..