:: dis is not meant to be negative - Part 1 ::

.i hope i dont sound like i'm complaining here. i jus wanna let out or rather, share dis experience of mine.

.yes, being a full time mother is not easy. full time mother in my post means - stay @ home strictly wit children, no one else @ home wit u - dat means, no maid/mother/mother in-law as well. dat explains why i have been missing in action in updating or posting any stuff.

.as i was sayin, motherhood is not easy. i didnt hv much to say when i got my first kid coz my MIL helped in taking care of her while i worked during the weekdays. i only got to see my daughter maybe 4 days out of 7. so i kinda hv time for myself. went for massages, went shopping/dining wit peeps. i even started schooling again. my schoolmate called me a weekend mum. i was hit hard in the head dat time. i found out truly the meaning of being a mum after i gave birth to my second child. n then my life begins..........

.n so, apart from handling my kids which is 2 yrs apart, i cook & i clean. i've got no maid & i'm not living wit anybody else except jup (my husband of course) & my 2 little angels. my life is now full of challenges which varies almost everyday. u can never feel sleepy on a rainy afternoon. hahahahahaha..

.i refuse to hv a maid taking care of my kids or my house as i frankly cannot entrust my house & my kids to strangers. i dont wanna end up abusing maids. no, i dont need dat kinda attention. i'd rather be the slave rather than to enslave. furthermore, i'm the mother. i go through hours of labour pain & i dont hv d heart to jus let my kids being cared for by strangers. no offence to those who have maids. i dont mean to condemn but i'm jus gently sharing my thoughts & experience. hehehehe.. as for my house, i'd rather maintain it myself. susah dulu senang kemudian mahhh... n i dont mean to boast about how capable i am. seriously, i'm no tag heuer. i crack under pressure ok. but turning yr directions to the CREATOR helps so much.

.i do not want to go back to work as i strongly believe in bringing up my children & caring for my household on my own. i dont give 2 hoots about wat other people wanna say. financial? i dont intend to live my life like d Beckhams so be it. as long as my kids hv food to eat daily, i'm contented and thankful. no - no LV/Coach bags for me (i pity jup ok. plus, i'm not dat sort).

.n so as i stepped dis whole new world, i learned loads. i dont think i need to attend a time management course. initial part of my embarkment on dis journey was hell. breakfast for Sulis was always Macdonalds. hehehehe.. n when Sufia cries for milk in the middle of the night, Sulis cry as well. n they dont cry - they WAIL!! hahahahaha.. those of you who havent heard how Sufia cries, it's the same as Sulis. both of them hv telan microphone voices like....... me. hehehe.. it was tough. but i was lucky dat Sufia slept thru d night when she's only abt a month old.

.as time goes by these few months, d solution to end the chaos @ home & having to eat tapau food daily is so bloody simple - WAKE UP EARLY! yes. now no matter how late i slept & how tired i was from d day/night before, i will never fail to wake up early (well there are rare occasions dat i failed u know). pls do not ask me wat time (its not as early as u think lah but still early for some). i only know dat by d time i finished preparing for breakfast/lunch/dinner & laundry done for d day, i saw sunlight. n waking up dat early really helps to clear d day's load by half! no joke. so i'm left wit only cookin & cleaning d house. most of the jobs dat need to be done will hv to be completed before my kids wake up.

.i hv to do dat. if not, i wont have d time to sit & play wit my kids in d day. they need my attention & i cant possibly focus my attention elsewhere when they need me. n so, waking up early is the best solution. early preparation saved my life. hahahahahaha.. frankly, though u planned ahead carefully, the day's journey is not 100% smooth sailing ok. there're bound to be hiccups somewhere. u cant predict d kids' behaviour & mood. i have my worse times... n more yet to come. hehehehe..

.......will continue......